Friday 24 July 2015

The Hidden Folk

Come, child, and tell me, were you looking for the Little People in the woods today? Then sit, and let me explain why that is something you must never do. Once upon a distant time we humans were great friends with the People of Peace and all was well. You must remember that They were here long before us, and all the earth is Theirs, but They tolerated our arrival, despite our lack of grace.  They taught us how to live in harmony with the world and we wanted for nothing, blessed as we were by Their patronage.

After a long while The Others came to trust us and offered us a great boon. They own the earth and all that’s in it, and above all, metal is the prize of the Sidhe, but They honoured us by granting the use of copper. It is magic and holds the power of the sun within in, so we were able to make great and beautiful things, like jewels and mirrors; and the world was a lighter, brighter place as a result.

However, smiths can be devious people and many coveted the Tidy Ones’ magic for themselves. One particularly jealous smith stole secretly into a Yarthkin camp and learned the skill of making a cutting edge; so the very first knife was fashioned. This scared the Gentle Folk and we were made to promise that we would only ever use our tools for good. We could eat with them, and prepare our food; we could build our homes and cut our firewood; but we must never wield one in anger.
   
Of course we didn’t listen, and ere long the smiths were forging longer and longer blades – daggers and swords – to please their feudal masters, and warfare was born.  Camp against camp, town against town, even brother against brother, fought for supremacy, all the while forgetting the source of true power. Then one day the smiths realised that iron will conquer copper and a band set out to steal the last great secret of the Fair Folk.

When the Lords and Ladies learned that Mankind had the Knowledge they were angry, and They cursed us forever: “If bloodshed is what you want, then bloodshed you shall have! Whenever you make a metal edge there will be a price to pay. Forget that at your peril!”  And They disappeared.
From that point They closed the doors of Fae to Humankind and hid their Fair Faces from all but a lucky few who had respected Them well, and who were taken to live in the Beautiful Land. And yet They still hold the power. We must always remember that metal is not ours to use. Whenever we forge it anew, or exchange it, we must make a payment, or the Wee Folk will claim their own price; and that price is usually blood. An axman misses his stroke and loses an arm; a kitchen maid is distracted and cuts her hand; a Feudal lord over-reaches his authority and many die.

We who are left must remember that all power still resides with the Old People. If we want our crops to flourish, if we want our stock to fatten well, if we don’t want our milk to sour or our cheese to spoil, we must still pay our dues. We must never use the word They hate – the one that starts with Faer – and we must honour Them in all our endeavours. Above all we must never go looking for Them, because They will never appear to one who does.


But if you are honourable, and you respect the Good People well, maybe one day you might catch a fleeting glance of one, if They choose to bless you so. But never marry a smith, young lady. Never marry a smith!

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July 2015
Inspired by the Damh the Bard song Iron from Stone. This version differs slightly from his explanation, but it's based on what I was told by my Father.  

Thursday 23 July 2015

More 55s

See the previous post for an explanation.
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Tiring. I tell you it’s tiring. You’d think having nothing to do would make life easy, wouldn’t you? But that’s not the case. Trying to look busy is even worse. I’d much sooner have enough to do so I could get on with it and not have to make up jobs to justify my paycheck. 


 No, I won’t! If you think I’m going to do all of that for you when you never do anything for anyone except yourself and you seem not to know the word “thanks” you have another think coming. You are the most selfish, arrogant leech I ever met!
Well, that’s what I SHOULD have said.


And he was sitting there in the middle of the carpet, stark naked except for the lampshade, and holding a torch in one hand and a copy of the Times in the other. And he was singing “When the Saints Go Marching In.” Of course I never worked out what he’d done with the tomatoes.


Fifty five! I’m sure last time I looked I was thirty-something with a great job, the future all ahead of me and ambitions to meet. And before that I was just 19, setting out expectantly in the world. It doesn’t really seem so long since I was starting high school. Where did the time go? 

55s

These are from a challenge I used to take part in that required exactly 55 words on any topic.
Various dates
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There were good things and bad things for Brenda about the accident. Although her belongings escaped damage when the car went out of control, she now faced a big problem with future transport. She would just have to find another shopping trolley to carry her life around in. It was tough being a bag lady.


“Please sit down.”
“No. Mummy doesn’t make us sit down.”
“I’m sure she does. Sit down!”
“Don’t have to.”
“If you don’t sit down you won’t get ice cream.”
“You’re mean.”
“People are getting annoyed with you.”
”Don’t care what people think. Mummy wouldn’t care about people.”
“Mummy never cared about anything much. Including us.”


Bernard hated management speak, but even more he loathed when he did all the work and colleagues took the credit.
So he devised a plan.
The next time one of the smarmy sales requested his ‘strategic input’ he returned totally wrong data.
“I think that’s what they call ‘low hanging fruit’,” he chuckled to himself.


It had been a long and tiring hearing. The coroner said it was impossible to tell why the death happened, and so he had to return a verdict of misadventure. The evidence said he’d been cleaning his gun when it went off and shot him in the face.  But we all know what that means.


Do not feed the birds, the sign said. Flying pests are a health hazard and you could face a fine of up to £5000. But the gulls could catch chips in flight. And Mary could not resist watching their aerobatics.  Besides, they would have trouble finding £5000 from her anyway. Let them try to sue!


Dianne sat paralysed with fear until the light faded, legs drawn up into her chair so the beast couldn’t reach her. Unable to see where the terrifying animal might be, she remained until rescue arrived.
It did not help her temper when her friend laughed out loud: “It’s a tomato top - not a spider!”


Dan had heard all the superstitions from his old grandma but he ignored them.  Shoes on the table, horseshoes upside down, red and white flowers in the same vase. All supposedly portended death – but he couldn’t see it. He didn’t see the bus coming as he stepped under a ladder to cross the road either.


Will’s motorbike wasn’t very powerful, but he dreamed of winning races just as soon as he was old enough to ride a big machine. He regularly practised his victory salute in readiness for the day.
At the inquest the lorry driver said Will could not have swerved because he had his hands in the air.


It had been a near thing. He reached out to grab her hand as she slipped off the kerb, right in front of the car, but couldn’t catch hold. It was only because the driver was a professional that he managed to miss her.  It was almost impossible to believe.
But trains can’t swerve.


“Stupid man,” thought Billy ‘the Dip’ Jackson. The bloke didn’t have a clue. He’d been the perfect mark – clearly a tourist and carrying cash in his back pocket. Billy counted out the notes until he came to the last sheet and read: “Enjoy your moment of gloating. They’re fakes. And I’ve now got your wallet.”


He dressed casually and his general impression suggested tweed. His outfits gave off a sort of browny-green aura, as if he had been carved from a part of the landscape, and they had the kind of texture that conjured up pictures of moorland and bracken. Sometimes I swear I could hear grouse calling around him


There really was no option, she thought as she plunged in the sharp knife. It had to be disposed of completely.
She watched the blood ooze away from the serrations along the edge and smiled.  She was good at this. There would be absolutely nothing left when she had finished.
Doreen just adored blue steak!


Helen took a deep breath and prepared to explain it again. Her fiancé was looking at her with a strange expression: slightly confused and slightly annoyed.
“This has nothing to do with women’s lib and equality. I’m just not going to take your name when we’re married.
“I refuse to be known as Helen Highwater!”


Jim looked at the tiny packet on the table in front of him that held so much hope. It was hard to believe that his future might rely on it. Now he was unemployed he might starve if he could not make the seeds grow. He pushed them into the soil and crossed his fingers.


Dad coughed and sat back with a worried look.
He enjoyed the turkey, perfectly roasted and surrounded with beautifully browned potatoes, parsnips, sausages, cranberry sauce and herby stuffing.
Then came the dreamy pudding, with brandied flames and a choice of rum butter or cream.
But nobody warned him about the sixpence – and he’d swallowed it!

There was something furtive in the way he moved through the house, edging carefully around furniture, stepping noiselessly. The woman was oblivious to his approach, peeling vegetables at the sink as he crept behind her. Then he made his move. 
“Surprise! Happy birthday Darling,” he announced, as he produced a bouquet from behind his back. 

Wedding

It was a wedding and everyone was supposed to be happy, weren’t they? But she knew
the real truth behind all of it. She knew what the guy was really like – but would she tell? She’d hurt a lot of people if she did.

The vicar was saying: “Speak now, or forever hold your peace…..”

August 2012

It's a riot

Smashing and burning
and looting and storming.
Charging around
and breaking into the Pound
Shop to steal
useless things with no real
value. The mob is making its feelings clear
and armed police in riot gear
are fighting back.
Society’s cracked.
And no-one hears a small
voice in the darkness among it all

crying ‘help!’

August 2011

Impress me

You want to impress me?  Bring me flowers. Not boring roses but bright daffodils. Clove-scented pinks. Feed me well. French bread, salty butter, crisp salad leaves. Fresh crab and a bottle of bone dry Chablis. Follow it with a good blue cheese; Roquefort with pears, and a glass of fine port. Read me Walt Whitman. 

June 2011

Remote

There are hundreds of channels on my new TV service, Internet access through my television, movies on demand and even a place where I can showcase photographs.  I can programme it to record favourites and watch them back while it records two more stations at the same time. 


If only I could understand the remote. 

June 2011

Social Not-working


 The carefully crafted message was designed not to exceed the maximum 140 characters.  She planned to post it simultaneously to all of her social networking sites so she would know exactly what time everyone could see it.  That way she would know how long it took everyone to respond.  She opened the dashboard on her computer, copied the text and pasted it into the window. One last check:

Life is just too much for me so I have decided to take an overdose of pills and white wine and watch the sunset for the last time. Goodbye 

Then she hit send.


And the words went unread by all the 263 people who called themselves her friends.  

June 2011

Shoreline

Shoreline.
Unsure line
Lapping waves
Draw a line in the sand:
Here and no further.
Erased by the next tide
High tide
A tide in the affairs of man.
Time and tide wait for none.
A time for change
A change of mind.
Leaving on the new tide.
New journey
New horizons
New shores.
Shoreline.

July 2011

More like Monday

Earlier today I thought
"It's Friday!"
But I was wrong.
When realised that it is
Only Tuesday
I almost cried,
And now I feel
More like Monday.


May 2011

Antivivisection

“Don’t be stupid”, the man in the white coat said, “They’re just dumb animals. They don’t matter and they can’t possibly understand what we’re doing to them.”

But  X19108 was born in the laboratory and had seen his mother, his sister and friends suffer at this man’s hands. And he’d learned how a hypodermic worked. 

August 2011

Online dating

Keely was flattered when Mike asked to be her friend online. He’d seen her photo and thought she was pretty. Yeah, yeah, she could hear teachers and her mum warning her about strangers, but he wasn’t a stranger was he? She’d seen his photo. But she wondered why his dad had come to meet her.

June 2011


How low?

‘Just how low can you get?’ Susan yelled as she stormed out and slammed the door behind her.

Martin called after her: ‘I’m a limbo dancer, what did you expect?’

August 2011

Beachcomber

Eliza was a beachcomber - not that she made a living out of it or anything (nor was she like that weird old man who lived in half a wrecked boat at the shore).  She would walk along the sand as the tide went out and pick up the jetsam that was stranded there, imagining how it had been lost.

She never picked up pebbles or a sea shell. She was only interested in the abandoned, manufactured items. She would take her finds back to her tiny flat in the middle of town and arrange them on ledges and bookcases and shelves around the walls. Then she would sit and look happily at her treasures, while she talked to the spirits of their previous owners.

When the building collapsed, the inquest jury agreed that the structure was never intended to hold such a weight of junk and the old woman’s eccentricity had contributed to her death.  Her neighbours agreed it was an outrage that no-one had done anything about it before.


The old man watched from his half-boat as the merpeople returned to the sea with their recovered possessions, then he headed up to the church on the cliff where he was the only mourner at Eliza’s funeral.  


June 2011
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A while back I used to take part in a challenge to use three given words in a short story.  The three in this case were her, outrage and seashell. 

Haiku - The gentle art of word folding

Haiku poetry
has seventeen syllables
in three short lines

I have never tried,
Though I write many poems,
to do a haiku.

Karate neither.
Although some origami
brings me great leisure.

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17 syllables arranged 5, 7, 5

June 2011

Friend

friend [fRend] n person for whom one feels affection and whom one knows intimately.

FB friend [faisbuk fRend] n someone who has met somebody you walked past three years ago.

Fat slasher

“Perfect disguise”, Amanda said to her reflection in the cheval mirror. “No-one will recognise you.” The wig made her head look like a coconut and the mouth was a delightful touch. She gnashed her teeth and pulled back her lips, gurning at herself to get a better look. Yellow and crooked: what they call ‘English teeth’ in the US. Then, of course, there was the fat suit.

Amanda knew from bitter, adolescent experience that the best way to stop people from seeing you was to be overweight. She had suffered a long time to learn that lesson. All through her teens she had been the butt of the jokes, left out of invitations and spurned by her peers, just because she had a weight problem. Behind the size she was actually quite attractive but they never knew because they never looked. They deemed her invisible. Talk about the elephant in the room!

But when she reached twenty one she inherited some money and used it to change her image and her identity. Not because she was unhappy with herself, but because she realised by then she would have to play by ‘their’ rules to win their game. And she had won. Her face appeared nightly on TV as a respected anchor-woman on a national news programme. Every one of her old tormentors could see her now. She was relishing her triumph and planned to crown it with a visit to each of them to point out the error of their old ways.

Hence the disguise: the wig, the fake teeth and the fat suit made her look exactly like she did at school. That was the point. She wanted to make sure they knew who was responsible as she murdered them, one by one. It was the perfect disguise for the perfect crime. Only the victims could identify her and they did not live to tell tales. She had even been captured on security cameras a few times and earned herself the nickname of The Fat Slasher but no-one linked the obese image with the svelte news reader. She knew she would never be caught. She just had to remember not to laugh when she reported the latest killing to her eager viewers.

August 2011

Epic fail

Called on geeky Simon last weekend – or Sly as he calls himself. He was always a nerd at school, and he’s no better now, even though he can see thirty coming. He tried quitting home at nineteen but couldn’t maintain his lifestyle, so the hesher was back at his parents’ place before he hit twenty one, living his ĂĽbergeek ways and missing out on any kind of girl action. He says “LOL. why should I pay to get my laundry done?” You can get that from the way he smells.

Anyhoo. I wanted to reprogram Sly. Thing is, he’s superstitious: avoids green; touches wood; salutes magpies; the whole heap. Worst of all, he’s afraid of thirteens, and especially Fridays with that date. It’s called friggatriskaidekaphobia; he told me. He knows all his phobias personally. 

As he opened the door he said: “What’s up bro?” He talks like that a lot. Like he’s seventeen and living in the ‘hood. Then he noticed the ladder. I’d propped it over the door hoping he’d step outside and walk under it but, no luck.

“Leave it out, bro’. Epic fail. You should not diss my belief system like that.  Show me some respec’.” He gets his street cultures confused at times.

“Belief system?” I spat, ignoring his slang salad.  “That’s no belief system, it’s hooey. The only person round here showing disrespect is you, scruffy n00b. Why don’t you bling yourself up and come down to the pub?”

He looked tempted but something held him back. “We’d have to check out before midnight. I can’t be there on the thirteenth.”

“Whatcha mean, the thirteenth?”

“Tomorrow, Saturday the thirteenth.” He looked at me as if I was vacant, so I decided to throw my best punch.

“Sly. Today’s the thirteenth. You know?”

It wasn’t the thirteenth. I only said it for a joke, but his eyes opened out like searchlights as he muttered, without a hint of his usual attitude, “You mean I went to work on Friday the thirteenth? Oh shit.” Then he sort of belched and his eyes rolled up. He tipped backwards like a felled tree and I heard a crack as his head met the floor.

“Simon. SLY!” I yelled, and knelt down to check him over. He wasn’t breathing.

“Oh shit oh shit oh shit oh HELP!” I hollered, grateful his mother was in the house. Then I started mouth to mouth.

That belch had been a vurp because I tasted vomit as I put my mouth over his. His mother called an ambulance, but I had to stick with the paramedic act and eat his puke till they arrived. It was gross.


Huge relief: he was breathing on his own by the time they got him to hospital. When he came round I admitted I’d been joshing and it backfired. He was OK about it, considering. He recovered with no harm, except for one thing: now he’s afraid of Friday the twelfth too.


June 2011

Another from the three word Wednesday challenge, The three words are highlighted in bold type. 

Cyberspace is dead

Cyberspace is dead. We already poisoned the real world so that trees and birds and animals and plants and bugs are fading from existence, leaving only bacteria to thrive in a barren wasteland. Now we have overcrowded the aether and our thoughts are ever tighter packed in the web-o-verse. Increasing blank pages and 404 errors were warning signs of disaster and the Internet is finally full to bursting. No email, no blog, no social networking, no games, no newsreel, no instant bookings in faraway hotels. Just the black screen of death. So, this is how it ends.


Or maybe I forgot to charge my laptop again.


May 2011

Cyberstress

People who are cyberstalked or harassed online experience higher levels of stress and trauma than people who are stalked or harassed in person, according to a presentation at the American Psychological Association's 119th Annual Convention.

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2011/08/110806203525.htm

I awake each night
Sweating cold and trembling,
Knowing you can reach me
Anytime. Any place.
No respite in reality
Your messages hold
Deeper threats.
There is no sleep in cyberspace.

The prison of your words
creates dread
that's always here.

In cyberspace there's
no escape from fear.

Cyber words insinuate
between events in the meatworld.
Like creeping cold
making winter out of summer joy.
Awaking every night
Sweating cold and trembling.
There is no sleep in cyberspace.
In texts, by phone,
Online, at home at work.
Tightening electronic prison.
Transmitted words are everywhere
and every i-event is tinged
with fear. A foreboding.
Afraid to thumb the button to reveal
The next threat.

What makes a city?



Architects and builders
Pencils and plumb lines
Bricks and mortar
Concrete and steel.

Roads and railways
Alleys and roundabouts
Pavements and walk-ways
Bridges and tunnels.

Shops and offices
Churches and temples
Hotels and hospitals
Houses, not homes.

Where are the people?
Residents and workers
Visitors and tourists
A city needs people.


July 2011

Bloodstain

It all began with a stain on the bathroom floor. Smeared and ill-defined, but, unmistakeably, it was blood. A trail of gory prints led from the red puddle, downstairs and into the kitchen. What kind of horror was I about to find?

Another battered field mouse corpse.


I wish my cats weren’t such keen hunters.  

July 2011

Autumn

They tell me that Autumn is a beautiful time of year. All the colour and the fresh, crisp mornings and rustling leaves. I guess it is – if you’re not a tree.  
September 2011 

When in Rome

There was only one thing on my ‘absolute musts’ list when I went to Rome and I was determined not to go home without experiencing it. I was fitting in the Eternal City around commitments on a business trip. It was hard to make time for the glories that I knew to be around me, although the warm evenings after meetings were more comfortable for sight-seeing than the baking heat of day. As a first timer in the city I had done what I always do: researched as much as I could before setting off so that I could have the best possible time and not waste a minute. I had a notebook full of ideas and addresses and I had bought a map as soon as I arrived at the airport, to help me find my way to the gems I had identified.

It would have been impossible to see everything in just a few days, during snatched hours between report writing and emailing my office, but I had pages of potential sights to ensure that I would always be near something I could enjoy and treasure. I had already found many of the wonders detailed there. In The Pantheon, with its miraculous concrete dome that demonstrates the building skills of the ancients who established the city, I had sat on a wooden seat and craned my head back to see a tiny hole so far above me. The roof thickness tapers towards its top and the mortar is mixed with lighter materials to reduce the burden on the arches beneath, ending in a circular gap where the light passes in a bright column to the floor. The dome forms a perfect half sphere and I was so delighted by its geometry that I forgot where I was, and I had to keep rubbing my neck after I left because it hurt to look around at ground level.

I discovered very little more of Ancient Rome, although I found the towering Trajan’s column as I wandered near the Forum, deciding whether to spend time among the ruined market area or to continue my exploration of the Baroque city. The triumphal pillar commemorates the victories of a pagan conqueror and yet, like so many other structures in Rome, it is now surmounted by the statue of a Christian saint. The stately Piazza Navona owes its shape to the stadium that once stood on the same site. Its elongated oval, now covered by a road, was the race track, and the central section would have held monuments and altars to the gods. A tiny section of the original wall is still visible beneath a church at one end, a pleasant surprise that my study of the city guides had failed to reveal. Today the central section holds delightful fountains and statues and very many souvenir stalls. 

Rome has fountains, hundreds of fountains, and many are world famous. The largest is the Trevi, which even starred in movies and had a song named after it. The sculpture from which the water flows is probably beautiful, but the throng of tourists who gathered there made it impossible to tell. Traditionally, if you want to ensure that you will return to Rome you should throw a coin into this fountain and it is said you are bound to come back. Tradition carries little weight with the officious guards who patrol the area, however. When I attempted to throw a coin I was rounded on and severely reprimanded. I hope that surreptitiously dropping in a coin counts just as well or I have wasted several cents, which might have been better used towards the cost of a flight.

The fame of the Sistine Chapel, with its Michelangelo ceiling, meant a long queue had formed even late in the day, so I eschewed its treasures, but was still brought close to tears by the elegant beauty of St Peter’s Square. I stood transfixed by the sweep of colonnades around me, the patterned paving and the imposing buildings of the Vatican. I managed a quick look inside the Basilica itself, which is huge and ornate and slightly confusing, as if several churches have been thrown together by some sort of earthquake.  With other visitors I stood, pilgrim-like, before the Pieta, the wonderful sculpture of the Madonna weeping over the crucified body of her Son, in awe of the artist who created it, but ashamed that I belong to the same species who have forced it into isolation because they want to damage it. It now stands behind bullet-proof glass to protect it from vandals; separated from the world in a way that neither its creator nor its subject would have wanted.

In the shadow of the brooding Castel Sant’ Angelo I stopped for a cold beer to rest my feet and establish my bearings. The nearby bridge was not on my list but Bernini’s magnificent angels shone with their own almost heavenly light in the evening sun. Each silhouette against the pure blue Roman sky was a work of art in itself. Their perfect marble features were a highlight of my visit and I wonder that they are not mentioned in more guides. But Rome has many such delights to discover and sometimes they are more wonderful than those that we recognise or know in advance.

After a while I mastered the city’s Metro system and the strain on the feet grew less but it was still restful to stop along the way and drink a cool beer or sample a tasty, ice-cold gelato while the well-dressed residents strolled by, or rode past on their ubiquitous little motor scooters. No-one wears crash helmets in Rome because that would ruin the fashionable line of their carefully chosen outfits. Style is a way of life in the city and nothing must be allowed to interfere with anyone’s image. They ride, perfectly poised, on the tiny bikes and never have a hair out of place. I even saw one woman pillion, riding side-saddle so she would not crease her immaculate skirt. On her lap was a small basket, from which peered a tiny dog, its hair tied up in a matching ribbon bow.

The Colosseum, or Flavian Amphitheatre, was another monument I chose not to explore. I went to see it, since it has a Metro station named after it, and felt slightly off balance when I emerged from the dark tunnel and saw it straight ahead. It has such a familiar outline and the image is used in so many ways that it is somehow unreal when it is right in front of you. It is as if it should not actually exist except in the mind or as a concept of Romanness. But there it was, and there I encountered men dressed as gladiators who would happily pose for a photograph for a few Euros. I declined. There is a strange and unpleasant smell around the Colosseum and I chose not to stay.


I had seen all of these marvels but had still not found what I believed to be the one essential thing in a trip to Rome. Throughout my treks I had kept an eye open for a hint of where I might find it, but it was not until my last night when I was lost in the rambling, twisting streets of the Trastevere area that I spotted my goal. There it was, a small, hand-written sign, fixed to a batten on a crumbling brick wall. In front of it were two flimsy tables covered in red and white checked cloths. The paper was pinned up with a rusty thumb tack and many people would have passed it by without a second thought, but I knew I had found my holy grail. A broad smile spread across my face as I read: spaghetti vongole.  I took a seat and enjoyed the best of Rome

February 2011


U and non-U

Unconventional, that’s me, and sometimes it has led to my being undervalued. My boss, an undoubted u, thinks me uncultured and often takes umbrage at my unusual methods. Our dealings often require an umpire because his goals are frequently unattainable. The necessary tools and cash are unavailable because of his unbending attitudes.  

But do not underestimate me. I am unbroken, in spite of his unwavering attacks. 

7/12/2010

Uncle Bob

Uncle Bob was not my real uncle. He was an old bloke who lived down our street, but all us kids called him Uncle. He was a friendly sort and gave us home made lemonade and biscuits when we played in his garden. He grew masses of bright, flashy flowers and rows of vegetables, but we were all welcome as long as we were careful where we stepped. His pride and joy was his leek bed that boasted tall, fat stems, like baby trees, bursting from its banked-up soil.

A few years ago he offered to teach me to make a garden of my own. Ours was a bit of a wreck, and he said if I came over after school, by myself, he would show me his secrets. So that is how I learned about planting and germination and how seed forms when the male and female flowers get together. How you set up compost by peeing on it; and how you grow the best leeks by starting with a really deep trench and putting a dead animal in the bottom before you plant. For the nutrients.

Bob went away last year, around the time that I dug my own leek bed. No-one knew why. He just put the house up for sale and left. No goodbyes or anything. But I already knew enough to make our garden the best in the street.

I learned a lot from Uncle Bob. I learned to do as I was told, and not to cry out when it hurt and never to tell anyone about ‘our little secret’. I learned how to look out for myself. Oh yes, I learned much more than gardening. And this year my leeks won prizes at the local show.

18/3/2011

Muse

My muse has not been striking.
In fact she went on strike.
In spite of all my efforts
I find I can not write.
Blank paper is a barrier
Too high for me to climb.
No sharp, inspired storyline
No breath of poem’s rhyme.
My usually prolific stream
Of words has dried up like


17/3/2011

The Monkey's Paw

THE LADY OF THE BARGE

AND OTHER STORIES

By W. W. Jacobs

THE MONKEY'S PAW

I.

Without, the night was cold and wet, but in the small parlour of Laburnam Villa the blinds were drawn and the fire burned brightly. Father and son
were at chess, the former, who possessed ideas about the game involving radical changes, putting his king into such sharp and unnecessary perils
that it even provoked comment from the white-haired old lady knitting
placidly by the fire.

"Hark at the wind," said Mr. White, who, having seen a fatal mistake after it was too late, was amiably desirous of preventing his son from
seeing it.

"I'm listening," said the latter, grimly surveying the board as he stretched out his hand. "Check."

"I should hardly think that he'd come to-night," said his father, with his hand poised over the board.

"Mate," replied the son.

"That's the worst of living so far out," bawled Mr. White, with sudden and unlooked-for violence; "of all the beastly, slushy, out-of-the-way
places to live in, this is the worst. Pathway's a bog, and the road's a torrent. I don't know what people are thinking about. I suppose because
only two houses in the road are let, they think it doesn't matter."

"Never mind, dear," said his wife, soothingly; "perhaps you'll win the next one."

Mr. White looked up sharply, just in time to intercept a knowing glance between mother and son. The words died away on his lips, and he hid a
guilty grin in his thin grey beard.

"There he is," said Herbert White, as the gate banged to loudly and heavy footsteps came toward the door.

The old man rose with hospitable haste, and opening the door, was heard condoling with the new arrival. The new arrival also condoled with
himself, so that Mrs. White said, "Tut, tut!" and coughed gently as her husband entered the room, followed by a tall, burly man, beady of eye and
rubicund of visage.

"Sergeant-Major Morris," he said, introducing him.

The sergeant-major shook hands, and taking the proffered seat by the fire, watched contentedly while his host got out whiskey and tumblers and
stood a small copper kettle on the fire.

At the third glass his eyes got brighter, and he began to talk, the little family circle regarding with eager interest this visitor from
distant parts, as he squared his broad shoulders in the chair and spoke of wild scenes and doughty deeds; of wars and plagues and strange
peoples.

"Twenty-one years of it," said Mr. White, nodding at his wife and son.
"When he went away he was a slip of a youth in the warehouse. Now look at him."

"He don't look to have taken much harm," said Mrs. White, politely.

"I'd like to go to India myself," said the old man, "just to look round a bit, you know."

"Better where you are," said the sergeant-major, shaking his head. He put down the empty glass, and sighing softly, shook it again.

"I should like to see those old temples and fakirs and jugglers," said the old man. "What was that you started telling me the other day about a
monkey's paw or something, Morris?"

"Nothing," said the soldier, hastily. "Leastways nothing worth hearing."

"Monkey's paw?" said Mrs. White, curiously.

"Well, it's just a bit of what you might call magic, perhaps," said the sergeant-major, offhandedly.

His three listeners leaned forward eagerly. The visitor absent-mindedly put his empty glass to his lips and then set it down again. His host
filled it for him.

"To look at," said the sergeant-major, fumbling in his pocket, "it's just an ordinary little paw, dried to a mummy."

He took something out of his pocket and proffered it. Mrs. White drew back with a grimace, but her son, taking it, examined it curiously.

"And what is there special about it?" inquired Mr. White as he took it from his son, and having examined it, placed it upon the table.

"It had a spell put on it by an old fakir," said the sergeant-major, "a very holy man. He wanted to show that fate ruled people's lives, and
that those who interfered with it did so to their sorrow. He put a spell on it so that three separate men could each have three wishes from it."

His manner was so impressive that his hearers were conscious that their light laughter jarred somewhat.

"Well, why don't you have three, sir?" said Herbert White, cleverly.

The soldier regarded him in the way that middle age is wont to regard presumptuous youth. "I have," he said, quietly, and his blotchy face
whitened.

"And did you really have the three wishes granted?" asked Mrs. White.

"I did," said the sergeant-major, and his glass tapped against his strong teeth.

"And has anybody else wished?" persisted the old lady.

"The first man had his three wishes. Yes," was the reply; "I don't know what the first two were, but the third was for death. That's how I got
the paw."

His tones were so grave that a hush fell upon the group.

"If you've had your three wishes, it's no good to you now, then, Morris," said the old man at last. "What do you keep it for?"

The soldier shook his head. "Fancy, I suppose," he said, slowly. "I did have some idea of selling it, but I don't think I will. It has caused
enough mischief already. Besides, people won't buy. They think it's a fairy tale; some of them, and those who do think anything of it want to
try it first and pay me afterward."

"If you could have another three wishes," said the old man, eyeing him keenly, "would you have them?"

"I don't know," said the other. "I don't know."

He took the paw, and dangling it between his forefinger and thumb, suddenly threw it upon the fire. White, with a slight cry, stooped down
and snatched it off.

"Better let it burn," said the soldier, solemnly.

"If you don't want it, Morris," said the other, "give it to me."

"I won't," said his friend, doggedly. "I threw it on the fire. If you keep it, don't blame me for what happens. Pitch it on the fire again
like a sensible man."

The other shook his head and examined his new possession closely. "How do you do it?" he inquired.

"Hold it up in your right hand and wish aloud," said the sergeant-major, "but I warn you of the consequences."

"Sounds like the Arabian Nights," said Mrs. White, as she rose and began to set the supper. "Don't you think you might wish for four pairs of
hands for me?"

Her husband drew the talisman from pocket, and then all three burst into laughter as the sergeant-major, with a look of alarm on his face, caught
him by the arm.

"If you must wish," he said, gruffly, "wish for something sensible."

Mr. White dropped it back in his pocket, and placing chairs, motioned his friend to the table. In the business of supper the talisman was partly
forgotten, and afterward the three sat listening in an enthralled fashion to a second instalment of the soldier's adventures in India.

"If the tale about the monkey's paw is not more truthful than those he has been telling us," said Herbert, as the door closed behind their
guest, just in time for him to catch the last train, "we sha'nt make much out of it."

"Did you give him anything for it, father?" inquired Mrs. White, regarding her husband closely.

"A trifle," said he, colouring slightly. "He didn't want it, but I made him take it. And he pressed me again to throw it away."

"Likely," said Herbert, with pretended horror. "Why, we're going to be rich, and famous and happy. Wish to be an emperor, father, to begin
with; then you can't be henpecked."

He darted round the table, pursued by the maligned Mrs. White armed with an antimacassar.

Mr. White took the paw from his pocket and eyed it dubiously. "I don't know what to wish for, and that's a fact," he said, slowly. "It seems to
me I've got all I want."

"If you only cleared the house, you'd be quite happy, wouldn't you?" said Herbert, with his hand on his shoulder. "Well, wish for two hundred
pounds, then; that 'll just do it."

His father, smiling shamefacedly at his own credulity, held up the talisman, as his son, with a solemn face, somewhat marred by a wink at
his mother, sat down at the piano and struck a few impressive chords.

"I wish for two hundred pounds," said the old man distinctly.

A fine crash from the piano greeted the words, interrupted by a shuddering cry from the old man. His wife and son ran toward him.

"It moved," he cried, with a glance of disgust at the object as it lay on the floor.

"As I wished, it twisted in my hand like a snake."

"Well, I don't see the money," said his son as he picked it up and placed it on the table, "and I bet I never shall."

"It must have been your fancy, father," said his wife, regarding him anxiously.

He shook his head. "Never mind, though; there's no harm done, but it gave me a shock all the same."

They sat down by the fire again while the two men finished their pipes. Outside, the wind was higher than ever, and the old man started nervously
at the sound of a door banging upstairs. A silence unusual and depressing settled upon all three, which lasted until the old couple rose
to retire for the night.

"I expect you'll find the cash tied up in a big bag in the middle of your bed," said Herbert, as he bade them good-night, "and something horrible
squatting up on top of the wardrobe watching you as you pocket your ill-gotten gains."

He sat alone in the darkness, gazing at the dying fire, and seeing faces in it. The last face was so horrible and so simian that he gazed at it
in amazement.' It got so vivid that, with a little uneasy laugh, he felt on the table for a glass containing a little water to throw over it. His
hand grasped the monkey's paw, and with a little shiver he wiped his hand on his coat and went up to bed.



II.

In the brightness of the wintry sun next morning as it streamed over the breakfast table he laughed at his fears. There was an air of prosaic
wholesomeness about the room which it had lacked on the previous night, and the dirty, shrivelled little paw was pitched on the sideboard with a
carelessness which betokened no great belief in its virtues.

"I suppose all old soldiers are the same," said Mrs. White. "The idea of our listening to such nonsense! How could wishes be granted in these
days? And if they could, how could two hundred pounds hurt you, father?"

"Might drop on his head from the sky," said the frivolous Herbert.

"Morris said the things happened so naturally," said' his father, "that you might if you so wished attribute it to coincidence."

"Well, don't break into the money before I come back," said Herbert as he rose from the table. "I'm afraid it'll turn you into a mean, avaricious
man, and we shall have to disown you."

His mother laughed, and following him to the door, watched him down the road; and returning to the breakfast table, was very happy at the expense
of her husband's credulity. All of which did not prevent her from scurrying to the door at the postman's knock, nor prevent her from
referring somewhat shortly to retired sergeant-majors of bibulous habits when she found that the post brought a tailor's bill.

"Herbert will have some more of his funny remarks, I expect, when he comes home," she said, as they sat at dinner.

"I dare say," said Mr. White, pouring himself out some beer; "but for all that, the thing moved in my hand; that I'll swear to."

"You thought it did," said the old lady soothingly.

"I say it did," replied the other. "There was no thought about it; I had just---- What's the matter?"

His wife made no reply. She was watching the mysterious movements of a man outside, who, peering in an undecided fashion at the house, appeared
to be trying to make up his mind to enter. In mental connection with the two hundred pounds, she noticed that the stranger was well dressed, and
wore a silk hat of glossy newness. Three times he paused at the gate, and then walked on again. The fourth time he stood with his hand upon
it, and then with sudden resolution flung it open and walked up the path. Mrs. White at the same moment placed her hands behind her, and hurriedly
unfastening the strings of her apron, put that useful article of apparel beneath the cushion of her chair.

She brought the stranger, who seemed ill at ease, into the room. He gazed at her furtively, and listened in a preoccupied fashion as the old
lady apologized for the appearance of the room, and her husband's coat, a garment which he usually reserved for the garden. She then waited as
patiently as her sex would permit, for him to broach his business, but he was at first strangely silent.

"I--was asked to call," he said at last, and stooped and picked a piece of cotton from his trousers. "I come from 'Maw and Meggins.'"

The old lady started. "Is anything the matter?" she asked, breathlessly. "Has anything happened to Herbert? What is it? What is
it?"

Her husband interposed. "There, there, mother," he said, hastily. "Sit down, and don't jump to conclusions. You've not brought bad news, I'm
sure, sir;" and he eyed the other wistfully.

"I'm sorry--" began the visitor.

"Is he hurt?" demanded the mother, wildly.

The visitor bowed in assent. "Badly hurt," he said, quietly, "but he is not in any pain."

"Oh, thank God!" said the old woman, clasping her hands. "Thank God for that! Thank--"

She broke off suddenly as the sinister meaning of the assurance dawned upon her and she saw the awful confirmation of her fears in the other's
perverted face. She caught her breath, and turning to her slower-witted husband, laid her trembling old hand upon his. There was a long silence.

"He was caught in the machinery," said the visitor at length in a low voice.

"Caught in the machinery," repeated Mr. White, in a dazed fashion, "yes."

He sat staring blankly out at the window, and taking his wife's hand between his own, pressed it as he had been wont to do in their old
courting-days nearly forty years before.

"He was the only one left to us," he said, turning gently to the visitor. "It is hard."

The other coughed, and rising, walked slowly to the window. "The firm wished me to convey their sincere sympathy with you in your great loss,"
he said, without looking round. "I beg that you will understand I am only their servant and merely obeying orders."

There was no reply; the old woman's face was white, her eyes staring, and her breath inaudible; on the husband's face was a look such as his friend
the sergeant might have carried into his first action.

"I was to say that Maw and Meggins disclaim all responsibility," continued the other. "They admit no liability at all, but in
consideration of your son's services, they wish to present you with a certain sum as compensation."

Mr. White dropped his wife's hand, and rising to his feet, gazed with a look of horror at his visitor. His dry lips shaped the words, "How
much?"

"Two hundred pounds," was the answer.

Unconscious of his wife's shriek, the old man smiled faintly, put out his hands like a sightless man, and dropped, a senseless heap, to the floor.


III.

In the huge new cemetery, some two miles distant, the old people buried their dead, and came back to a house steeped in shadow and silence. It
was all over so quickly that at first they could hardly realize it, and remained in a state of expectation as though of something else to happen
--something else which was to lighten this load, too heavy for old hearts to bear.

But the days passed, and expectation gave place to resignation--the hopeless resignation of the old, sometimes miscalled, apathy. Sometimes
they hardly exchanged a word, for now they had nothing to talk about, and their days were long to weariness.

It was about a week after that the old man, waking suddenly in the night, stretched out his hand and found himself alone. The room was in
darkness, and the sound of subdued weeping came from the window. He raised himself in bed and listened.

"Come back," he said, tenderly. "You will be cold."

"It is colder for my son," said the old woman, and wept afresh.

The sound of her sobs died away on his ears. The bed was warm, and his eyes heavy with sleep. He dozed fitfully, and then slept until a sudden
wild cry from his wife awoke him with a start.

"The paw!" she cried wildly. "The monkey's paw!"

He started up in alarm. "Where? Where is it? What's the matter?"

She came stumbling across the room toward him. "I want it," she said, quietly. "You've not destroyed it?"

"It's in the parlour, on the bracket," he replied, marvelling. "Why?"

She cried and laughed together, and bending over, kissed his cheek.

"I only just thought of it," she said, hysterically. "Why didn't I think of it before? Why didn't you think of it?"

"Think of what?" he questioned.

"The other two wishes," she replied, rapidly.

"We've only had one."

"Was not that enough?" he demanded, fiercely.

"No," she cried, triumphantly; "we'll have one more. Go down and get it quickly, and wish our boy alive again."

The man sat up in bed and flung the bedclothes from his quaking limbs. "Good God, you are mad!" he cried, aghast.

"Get it," she panted; "get it quickly, and wish--Oh, my boy, my boy!"

Her husband struck a match and lit the candle. "Get back to bed," he said, unsteadily. "You don't know what you are saying."

"We had the first wish granted," said the old woman, feverishly; "why not the second?"

"A coincidence," stammered the old man.

"Go and get it and wish," cried his wife, quivering with excitement.

The old man turned and regarded her, and his voice shook. "He has been dead ten days, and besides he--I would not tell you else, but--I could
only recognize him by his clothing. If he was too terrible for you to see then, how now?"

"Bring him back," cried the old woman, and dragged him toward the door. "Do you think I fear the child I have nursed?"

He went down in the darkness, and felt his way to the parlour, and then to the mantelpiece. The talisman was in its place, and a horrible fear
that the unspoken wish might bring his mutilated son before him ere he could escape from the room seized upon him, and he caught his breath as
he found that he had lost the direction of the door. His brow cold with sweat, he felt his way round the table, and groped along the wall until
he found himself in the small passage with the unwholesome thing in his hand.

Even his wife's face seemed changed as he entered the room. It was white and expectant, and to his fears seemed to have an unnatural look upon it.
He was afraid of her.

"Wish!" she cried, in a strong voice.

"It is foolish and wicked," he faltered.

"Wish!" repeated his wife.

He raised his hand. "I wish my son alive again."

The talisman fell to the floor, and he regarded it fearfully. Then he sank trembling into a chair as the old woman, with burning eyes, walked
to the window and raised the blind.

He sat until he was chilled with the cold, glancing occasionally at the figure of the old woman peering through the window. The candle-end,
which had burned below the rim of the china candlestick, was throwing pulsating shadows on the ceiling and walls, until, with a flicker larger
than the rest, it expired. The old man, with an unspeakable sense of relief at the failure of the talisman, crept back to his bed, and a
minute or two afterward the old woman came silently and apathetically beside him.

Neither spoke, but lay silently listening to the ticking of the clock. A stair creaked, and a squeaky mouse scurried noisily through the wall.
The darkness was oppressive, and after lying for some time screwing up his courage, he took the box of matches, and striking one, went
downstairs for a candle.

At the foot of the stairs the match went out, and he paused to strike another; and at the same moment a knock, so quiet and stealthy as to be
scarcely audible, sounded on the front door.

The matches fell from his hand and spilled in the passage. He stood motionless, his breath suspended until the knock was repeated. Then he
turned and fled swiftly back to his room, and closed the door behind him. A third knock sounded through the house.

"What's that?" cried the old woman, starting up.

"A rat," said the old man in shaking tones--"a rat. It passed me on the stairs."

His wife sat up in bed listening. A loud knock resounded through the house.

"It's Herbert!" she screamed. "It's Herbert!"

She ran to the door, but her husband was before her, and catching her by the arm, held her tightly.

"What are you going to do?" he whispered hoarsely.

"It's my boy; it's Herbert!" she cried, struggling mechanically. "I forgot it was two miles away. What are you holding me for? Let go.
I must open the door.

"For God's sake don't let it in," cried the old man, trembling.

"You're afraid of your own son," she cried, struggling. "Let me go. I'm coming, Herbert; I'm coming."

There was another knock, and another. The old woman with a sudden wrench broke free and ran from the room. Her husband followed to the landing,
and called after her appealingly as she hurried downstairs. He heard the chain rattle back and the bottom bolt drawn slowly and stiffly from the
socket. Then the old woman's voice, strained and panting.

"The bolt," she cried, loudly. "Come down. I can't reach it."

But her husband was on his hands and knees groping wildly on the floor in search of the paw. If he could only find it before the thing outside got
in. A perfect fusillade of knocks reverberated through the house, and he heard the scraping of a chair as his wife put it down in the passage
against the door. He heard the creaking of the bolt as it came slowly back, and at the same moment he found the monkey's paw, and frantically
breathed his third and last wish.

The knocking ceased suddenly, although the echoes of it were still in the house. He heard the chair drawn back, and the door opened. A cold wind
rushed up the staircase, and a long loud wail of disappointment and misery from his wife gave him courage to run down to her side, and then
to the gate beyond. The street lamp flickering opposite shone on a quiet and deserted road.

Small stones 2011

The results of a challenge to write something every day in January 2011. The idea is to concentrate, just for a while, then record what you've experienced.
January 1
The new year burst to life with fireworks, a celestial garden spread across the night sky. Blossoms of fire with petals of flame sprang up; chrysanthemums, daisies and tall, waving grasses of light, which faded faster than true blooms. An after image burned on my eyes preserved them for a few seconds, then was gone. The year was abandoned to the darkness of January. 
January 2
This morning I looked up and saw a piece of blue sky peeping through a tear in the blanket of grey-striped cloud. It was a pale, baby blue shade with a light, pearlescent shimmer and was far too small to make a sailor a pair of trousers (as my father used to say) but it was there. A tiny reminder that winter does not last forever.
January 3
The cat curled up on the sofa. A black question mark against the cushions.
January 4
No voices.
I am surrounded by an apparent silence that actually consists of white noise: the rush and slight rumble of the air conditioning system, a gentle tapping of fingers on cushioned keyboards, and two floors down, outside, there is an occasional thunk of a car door as someone gives up and goes home.
First day back at work.
January 5

          
                                                            electric eel
                                                                              of headlamps
                                                                                         swimming
                                                                                                  towards
                                                                                                          me
                                                                                                 through
                                                                                                   the
                                                                                    rush hour
                                                                               gloom.


January 6
With a spill of glass beads and the chinkling of a teaspoon in a china cup, two hesitant birds began the dawn chorus.
January 7
Heat flows from the china to my hands, infusing comfort as it spreads. Sharp, green assaults my nose, high inside my nostrils. I sip, and a darker green washes my tongue, cascading sweetness then leaving a gently bitter after taste. The scent of jasmine rises on steam and I inhale gratefully. The cup that cheers.
January 8
Sliver of light on a chaffinch sky.
January 9
Evidence of sad lives, cheap, empty bottles litter the graveyard like abandoned corpses, too poor for a proper burial.
January 10
Sudden chest pains in the night. We both think the same but avoid using the words on the drive to hospital, trying not to tempt fate. The journey seems longer in the frost-chilled darkness and we are unfamiliar with the new ward lay-outs. We find A&E and soon there are tests and needles and wires and hushed conversations and a very long wait.

It is not what we feared. The relief is almost as painful as the complaint.
January 11
The jeweller’s shop (where I was selling) was a symphony of taste, an exercise in understated furnishing, and cleverly designed to make rich people feel at home, with its stylish black backgrounds, gleaming glass cases and subtle, angled lighting that showed off the diamonds perfectly and emphasised their sparkle; the charity shop, on the other hand, (where I was buying) was a jumble of items that were thrown together anyhow, no colour co-ordination, no themes, no organisation, and all illuminated by bare bulbs overhead, that could not be directed to glint off the beaded bracelets on the shelf, no matter how hard you tried. 
January 12
I sometimes think that I'd be able to see better if I could take my eyes out and polish them.
January 13
The normally reassuring tick of the bedroom clock measures the pace of my insomnia.
January 14
Tired of being so tired. My body rolling to a halt like a clockwork toy that needs rewinding;  my head an over-stuffed cushion, heavy and mis-shapen. My legs are worn out pants with stretchless elastic. I feel they could fail at any moment. My arms are groaning, even at the thought of typing another word. 
January 15
The buffeting wind has left broken twigs scattered across the road like wooden confetti. 
January 16
Smooth red potatoes, like small bald heads that must be scalped for dinner.
January 17
In the small hours of a dark night the contented purring of a warm cat can be a deep comfort.
 January 18
The bright, unblinking star in the dawn sky is actually a planet. I have no idea which one.
January 19
In the cold dawn the starlings are hunched along the telegraph wires, composing music that will never be performed.
January 20

 
       Next door's
    kitten is crouched
   on the windowsill, an
  indoor pet with outdoor
    dreams. His body
   sways slowly and the
 very tip of his tail is flicking
gently but his head is steady and
his eyes determined as he identifies
  his prey. If it were not for the glass
  between him and the world he would
  try for the catch, but would be unlikely
      to succeed. His dreams must be very
                                               big indeed,
                                                   because
                                                   he is fixed
                                                 on planes
                                                taking off
                                               from
                                               the
                                                 local
                                                     airport.


January 21
The glow from the gas fire looks very warm, but my feet are still cold.
January 22
All along the roadside moles have been digging, leaving Morse code molehills that spell out their underground secrets.
January 23
Vinegar seeps from the tip of the newspaper cone and its sharp aroma rises with the gentle steam. Oozing beef fat oils my fingers and the tang of salt seasons my tongue.
I gasp, and suck in short pulls of air to cool the blistering heat of the freshly fried potato. Beneath the log pile of chips the crisply battered fish is glistening, ready for me to break open its brown-dog shell and reveal the softly flaking flesh inside.

January 24
Recorded memories in a museum gallery surprise me by telling my own history.
January 25
Bubbles. They usually mean celebration, but when they are flavoured with chlorine they mean relaxation. Jacuzzi. Even the name sounds bubbly.

January 26
A black lace thong hangs like a limp flag from the security camera on the student accommodation block. The signal is clear but the message is not.

January 27
It wasn't until I started the River of Stones project that I realised how much of my life is repetitive.

Getting up at the same time each day; seeing the same people walking through the village; driving the same route, with the same junctions and the same lorries getting in my way at the same stretch of the motorway every day.

On the other hand, it wasn't until I started the River of Stones project that I noticed the lake by the side of the road; the blackbird that lives in the churchyard; the grey fluffy cat that patrols the car park; or how beautiful the sky can be at 7am.


January 28
The moon was a French polished fingernail against the dawning sky.

January 29
Covered in flour, my hands knead the bread dough until it is smooth. Later, when I make the sandwiches, there is still flour along my arms.
January 30
Small scrap of silk covered bound feet but is not even big enough for my toes. I cannot imagine the pain.
January 31
The lost glove waves sadly on the damp street corner, like an unrequited lover longing to be noticed.